Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Dragons Are Cool



Confession: I am in no way a computer person, despite having been exposed to a TSR-80 back in the sixth grade. We played with the Basic programming, but I quickly got bored making a message repeat or pixels randomly appear on the screen. This was about 1981, way before anyone (besides Bill Gates or the guys at Apple) knew how important computers were to become. ANYWAY, I say that only because I just tried to add a really cool Dragon gif to this site, but I have a feeling it will only appear as an image. Drat.

I was introduced to Dungeons and Dragons about the same time as that TRS-80. A friend, Pat Shaughnessy, invited me over to play at his house, and from that point on I was hooked. Looking back, I'd say a big reason for this was because I had just read The Hobbit and The Lord of the Rings trilogy the year before, so fantasy was a genre I was just learning to appreciate. Unfortunately, the game sessions would devolve into our going outside, running around in the woods and whacking each other with sticks. Then at the end of sixth grade, Pat went to BC High (or was it BC Junior High?) and we slowly lost touch. Since he was the DM and I knew no one else to run a game, we stopped playing.

Junior high was two crappy years of school, but over the course of those two years, friendships began to coalesce that would firm up through high school - friendships that (for better or worse) were centered on D&D. Pete had been a friend since I moved to that town in fourth grade, but Karl, Tom and Steve were all guys I met and became friends with mostly over the course of eighth grade. Karl had played D&D with his older brother, and he was interested in starting up a group with more guys. Throughout high school, the five of us would meet almost every day after school to play D&D, watch a movie or just hang out. I won't go into detail about those years and what those friends meant to me, but suffice to say that my life would be radically different if it weren't for them and D&D.

The first week of college, I put up a sign on the floor of my dorm asking if anyone were interested in playing D&D, and the posting was answered the next day by Greg, a guy I still play D&D with to this day (I can't believe it's been 21 years!). Throughout college we played with a group that expanded up to 10 people, but after college our group settled down to 5-8 people. Nowadays I play remotely with them while they meet once a month in MA. I've played with a few different groups here in Portland, but still that group back east remains the best (and Greg one of the best DM's).

It's very difficult for me to say exactly why I like role playing as much as I do. When it's done right, it's a creative, social activity that lets the players imagine they're adventuring like in a book or movie. It involves a certain degree of acting, problem solving, and group interaction (both real and through your character); and it satisfies that craving for winning battles, gaining treasure and improving your skills/getting stronger.

There is a lot more to be said on the subject, but for now this is a good run-down of my history with the game. Now I'll submit this post and see what the dragon gif looks like...

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

Lesson Learned, or Amazon Sucks

I can't believe it's been this long since the last time I posted. One of the main reasons, of course, is that the campaign had me upset almost daily (I think I overused the word 'outraged' - really, the entire Bush administration had me outraged, while the McPalin ticket just had me deeply annoyed), but after Obama won, my world-view got a whole lot brighter. Hence, not so much need to vent.

About the time of my last post, I went online and looked for a book about the Angel television series. I found one on Amazon written by the same author of a Buffy book that I like, so I was going to order it, but it was listed as out of stock. Also, Amazon had just had that trouble with the Obama mask, so I was feeling trepidation about giving them my business. (Amazon sold a Halloween mask of Obama's face listing it as a "terrorist" mask. Partner wrote them a scathing letter, and they responded the next day with an apology). A few days later I checked back to the site, and this time the book was listed as in stock. Thinking that they must've received more from the publisher, I ordered it (that was Oct 23). However, because they advertise free shipping with any order over $25, I decided to order another book I wanted and save the shipping.

Over a week went by without the books being shipped. I finally wrote a letter to customer service asking where the order was, and I got a letter back the next day (score one for Amazon). I was told that the Angel book was probably listed incorrectly because they were having trouble locating it in their warehouses. They didn't ship the other book because I had ordered both books to be shipped together. The next day I got a form email asking me for updated info regarding my order. I responded that I would continue waiting for the Angel book. The day after that, I got an email stating that the second book was going to be shipped separately with no additional shipping cost (score another one for Amazon).

Well, that was over two weeks ago. Since I can track it online, I know that the book was listed in Phoenix on Nov 19 & 20. On Nov 29, the book was listed as being in Iowa. It's going in the opposite direction! It's now Dec 2, the mail arrived, but still no book. Over 5 weeks after placing my order! This is truly one of the most frustrating order-online experiences I've ever had.

What gets me most about this whole thing is that Amazon purposely entices buyers to spend more by promising free shipping, but then the buyer has to search for the fine print which basically says "free shipping means we'll ship it whenever we damn-well please." I feel like I was the victim of a bait-and-switch, or at least some strong-arm tactics. "If you spend more you'll get free shipping, but you'll never get your order. You might as well spend the extra money and get the order in 2 days."

From now on, Amazon will not be getting my business.

Thursday, October 30, 2008

TV

Speaking of crying, there's an episode of Cheers that gets me every single time, even when I just read it. Stay with me:

The other day I was explaining to Partner about how the FOX network came to be so popular. Yesterday I decided to check out the wikipedia entry to see if I had it right (I did). While there, I was reminded of an early FOX show that I enjoyed but couldn't remember the name of. The wiki mentioned a show and an actress that I thought might be connected to the show I was thinking of, so I went to IMDB. Turns out that the show I remembered watching and enjoying was a one-season spinoff of that other show. So far so good. The show I was thinking about was Open House, which not only starred a young Ellen DeGeneres (as a man-crazy secretary - not type casting!) but also starred an actor who had one appearance in the first season of Cheers. Still on IMDB, I clicked on his name, saw the episode of Cheers ("Coach's Daughter"), then clicked on that.

In the entry about the ep, someone wrote out the transcript of three different scenes (although not the one when Diane called the man "pond scum," which I remember got the biggest laugh of the show) including the climatic scene when Coach tells his daughter not to marry that man. As I was reading the scene, tears welled up in my eyes. Such is the power of a good scene (and maybe a good visceral memory of watching the show), it can make the observer cry just by reading it. I can't think of any other scene in any other show which has had the same effect on me.

I've long had a love/hate relationship with TV. In high school, I used to stay up late watching David Letterman on weeknights, and for awhile The Young Ones on Sunday night. I had a few other favorite shows, but mostly the TV set was used as a monitor for the movies I watched on our VCR. In college, my roommates had our new faves (Star Trek:TNG and The Simpsons among them), but still the set was used more for movies than network TV.

At some point as an adult, I decided I needed a TV only as a monitor for my VCR and then DVD player, so I essentially stopped watching TV (got all my news and info from NPR, thank you very much). I must be one of the few Americans who didn't see the planes hit the WTC on 9/11, nor did I see any of the devastation from Katrina in New Orleans.

Lately I've lived in a house with all the premium channels, so I'm overloaded with choices. You'd think I might like that - and I do have quite a few favorite shows - but I actually don't like that I spend all my free time (well, most of my free time) watching the television. Hence, the love/hate relationship.

Maybe next time I'll talk about those favorites...

Thursday, October 23, 2008

Memories

There's a part of Buddhist (or is it Taoist?) philosophy which says something like, "Only an empty cup is a useful cup." In other words, one should always have an open mind with no preconceptions. Given that, I have the most useful mind of all. I have no preconceptions because I couldn't remember them even if I wanted to. Thanks to my faulty memory, every day is a new adventure!

I bring this up because I just got a couple of emails from an old friend. In one of them, he included a link to news about my old high school: one of the social studies teachers just died. I'd like to be able to mourn him, even for a second, but the truth is that I have no memory of him whatsoever. In my defense, I never had him as a teacher (although at least one of my sisters did). However, our school was not very big, and there were only a handful of social studies teachers there. I know for a fact that I saw him, but for the life of me I can't even remember what he looked like.

Then again, even if I'd had him for a teacher and remembered him, I doubt I'd mourn very much. Truth is, once someone leaves my life, I have a lot of difficulty holding on. This actually has less to do with remembering them as it does to just my always letting go of the past. Over the years I've theorized why this is, and the only thing I can come up with is the fact that we moved three times (four houses in three towns) before I was ten. I'm sure that's not the only reason, but that's the only thing which explains why I've moved a lot over the years (before moving to PDX 4 years ago, I hadn't stayed in the same place for more than two years dating back 17 years) and can't seem/want to stay connected with anyone I've left. I have a fondness for the memories - I've really liked a lot of people, places and experiences - but no ability or desire to keep in touch.

Getting back to the topic of death, I also wouldn't mourn the teacher because I honestly believe that death is a natural part of life, so no need/sense to mourn too much. Having said that, there have been a few people in my life whom I wept for (I nearly lost it in my hotel room, the night of my cousin's wedding, when I thought about my dead uncle and how he wasn't alive to see his son's wedding), and a few more who I will truly miss once they pass. But, I think I've cried more watching movies ("Stella Dallas" nearly killed me) or reading books (ditto "Peter Pan") than at funerals.

Speaking of funerals, is it morbid to plan the music for your own? I have a list of songs I'd like played, but I don't know who to give it to. I'd also like to have a huge party when I pass, but the way that I haven't kept in touch with people, I don't know if anyone will actually come. Maybe with an open bar...

Sunday, October 19, 2008

King of Procrasti-Nation

Ever since I was young, I procrastinated. When I was in grammar/high school, I would tell myself that I did my best work under pressure. That, of course, was just my own way of justifying not doing something until the last minute. Unfortunately, I was actually good enough to do homework (or cramming) just before it was due and still get a decent grade. Also, I had friends who seemingly did the same thing, and they actually did even better (I've always had smart friends). I say "unfortunate" because this only reinforced the bad behavior. Not having learned that it's better to start something right away and take the time to properly work through it, I continued my bad habits through college. Again, I got decent grades, but I honestly didn't do as well as I could've if I had had better study habits. I am not proud of the MANY all-nighters I had to pull to finish a paper.

Another of my - let's say 'quirks' - is that, if something's tough, I tend to procrastinate even more. Talk about putting things off, it took me over a year to paint three walls of our livingroom after I finished the first one. Whatever it is, I will think every day about doing it, feel guilty about not doing it, even talk about how I'm not doing it, but still I will keep putting it off.

Why I'm writing about this now is because I actually started a blog entry on Oct 7 - a diatribe about greed (and possibly feminism) - but still haven't finished it. It got tough trying to organize all my thoughts on the subject (in general, I don't like it), so I put writing it off. And off. And off. As a result, I haven't done any blog entries since then. I was hoping that this blog would help me, but instead it is just one more thing I have to feel guilty about not doing. Ugh.

I guess another problem is that I'm not quite as outraged about the political situation as I was. Yes, there is still a TON to be angry about, but I know whom I'm voting for, and at this point he has the momentum to probably win (knock on wood).

I'd write more on the subject, if only I could finish the other blog entry...

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

Favorite Films

Just cuz:

The Thin Man (1934) - The first is best, but Nick & Nora are wonderful throughout.

Casablanca (1942) - The dialogue is amazing – still one of the all-time best.

To Sir, With Love (1967) - My favorite of the “inspirational teacher/troubled students” movies. Great song, too!

Harold and Maude (1971) - I love this so much, I recorded the film onto a 90-minute cassette so I could listen to it in the car or on my Walkman.

What’s Up, Doc (1972) - A modern screw-ball comedy that’s second to none. Babs was never better.

The Godfather/Part II (1972/1974) - Both films are epic – runner-up in this genre is of course Goodfellas(1990).

Jaws (1975) - Enough said, right?

Star Wars (1977) - I was 8 when this appeared, and my Dad got passes from work, so we saw it the first week it was out. To me, it’s still the best of the bunch. And for any nit-pickers, I’ll say it: Star Wars IV: A New Hope. Happy?


Grease (1978) - First movie I saw multiple times (3) in the theater. The transformation of Olivia near the end still gives me chills.

The Warriors (1979) - Similar to Flash Gordon in that it’s very cartoony, but as a fantastical view of New York in 1979, it’s spot on. And great song by Joe Walsh!

9 to 5 (1980) - Dolly’s best. Lily isn’t bad either!

Flash Gordon (1980) - Love it – and great soundtrack from Queen.

The Thing (1982) - The special effects have never been matched, even though – or maybe because – it was made before CGI.

The Big Chill (1983) - I haven’t seen it in awhile, but when I was in high school I loved this film, so I had to include it.

This is Spinal Tap (1984) - I saw this in the theater, then saw the group play an all-ages show at the Channel in Boston. I’ve seen this more times than I can count. Great soundtrack, too!

Midnight Run (1988) - So many good quotes, it makes my head spin.

Tremors (1990) - I saw this at a sneak-preview show before I even knew what it was about. I was pleasantly surprised by this homage to 50’s B-movies, not to mention the appearance of Mr. Keaton as a gun-toting, conspiracy-minded survivalist.

Almost Famous (2000) - The extended director’s cut, also known as “the Bootleg,” is best. This is the movie that made Kate Hudson a star - and deservedly so!

Erin Brockovich (2000) - I wouldn’t have thought this would make my list of favorites, but it’s one of the few movies that I totally enjoy watching every time I see it.

Hedwig and the Angry Inch (2001) - Most of the movie is just so much window dressing for the songs, but what a group of songs! Actually a movie about finding your true love. Wonderful.

Girls Will Be Girls (2003) - I watched it with a group of guys, and almost everyone in that room has since bought the dvd. Bitchy fun at its best!

The Incredibles (2004) - see comments from Erin Brockovich above

Special mention has to go to the films of Jackie Chan. I'm not talking about the American-made films like Rush Hour, Shanghai Noon, their sequels and other pablum. I'm referring to the Hong Kong films that he co-wrote, directed, choreographed and/or sang the theme song! I could do a whole blog on why I love Jackie Chan (and may do someday), but suffice to say that the action in movies like the 2 Armour of God films, the Police Story films, Drunken Master 2 and (my favorite) The Miracle (also called Mr Canton and Lady Rose) is better than almost everything else out there.

Sunday, October 5, 2008

Identity Crisis

I just got the chance to see SNL's skit from Sat night about the VP debate. Again, spot-on and hilarious. HIGHLY recommended, as are the other two skits starring Tina Fey as Palin.


Recently my friend loaned me a laptop with windows xp, and on the initial screen the user avatar he chose for me was a rubber duck. Clicking on that brought me to the desktop, and the wallpaper he chose was from the film Return of the King. This got me thinking about identity - specifically, what images we choose to represent ourselves.

Perhaps you've had this same experience: you walk into one of those 'hip' stores like Spencer Gifts or Newbury Comics and you're confronted with a bunch of items - let's say bobble-head dolls. Whereas in the past all the bobble heads were sports figures, today they have a bobble head for everything. So you stand in front of the wall of bobble heads and you wonder: if I'm gonna pick just one of these things, which one most represents me? If you're like me, you can't decide and walk away empty handed. The idea of a cool, hip bobble head from an obscure 70's cartoon character is wonderful, but does Grape Ape really represent me? Atom Ant?

Now on this brave new world of computers, we can choose wallpaper, screen-savers and avatars from a literal world of images, but which one(s) actually represent who we are? I guess for a lot of people this is easy. After all, I see friends' computers with great images flashing past - or I read posts with interesting avatars - and I think that these pictures must accurately reflect the user. I also think what a one-dimensional way to reflect who they are.

For me, I just can't seem to do it. For example, let's go back to the laptop. When I looked at the user account pics that my friend could've chosen for me, I saw that none of them really reflect who I am. I love animals, but the cat and dog pics were too cutesy; and besides, my love for animals is just one aspect of my personality. The rubber duck he chose was for all intents and purposes probably the best he could've done. I actually do have a small collection of rubber 'devil' ducks, and I do enjoy the quirky. As far as the wallpaper, I do enjoy fantasy and have loved Tolkien's "Lord of the Rings" series since I was a child, but again this is just one small aspect of who I am. Did my friend think this was a much greater part of me? Could he not think of any other pics that he thought I might enjoy? Am I thinking too much about this?

Ultimately, I kept the user account avatar as the rubber duck. However, I changed the wallpaper to the cover art of "The Great Lost Kinks Album," and the screen saver is now random images from various Kinks logos. Do these images accurately represent me? Not totally, but they'll do for now, at least until I take the time to gather more images. Of course, none of this matters all that much. The computer is really just for me, and the likelihood that someone else will see it and/or watch my screen-saver is fairly remote.

Friday, October 3, 2008

VP Debate

I watched last night’s vice-presidential debate as planned. Then as planned, I went out for a few Capt. Morgan’s. No alcohol hang-over today, though I’m sure this political hang-over will last at least until the next presidential debate on Tuesday.

Since I know I’m going to vote Obiden, I was obviously disappointed by last night’s debate. Why? Because Biden didn’t slam her to the floor (figuratively, of course), nor did Palin implode (again, figuratively…maybe). And unlike Palin’s network interviews, the questioner/moderator didn’t force her to answer the questions. The result was that Palin successfully avoided answering questions she didn’t know (I’m still wondering if she even heard the question about her Achilles heel – or even if she knows what that means) and instead just repeated the campaign’s talking points, which she was obviously trained to do. She seemed to be more competent than she appeared in her interviews, so ignorant people will believe she can be a good vice president. I dare say that no one’s minds were changed by last night’s debate.

One of the things that bothered me about Palin was that she repeated the party line about Obama raising taxes. McCain did the same thing: he kept insisting that Obama’s plan would raise taxes, while Obama (and Biden last night) continually said that his plan would NOT raise taxes for those earning less than $250k a year. They seem to be doing the exact same thing that Bush did: if you say it enough, it must be true. Maybe it’s a strategy to keep Obiden on the defensive, but frankly, I want leaders who don’t play deceptive games just to squeeze out a few votes. Obiden have said that their plan won’t raise taxes for the middle class; until McPalin prove otherwise, they should stop repeating their lies.

Something else I wish the candidates would do is finally define what they mean by “preparations” and “pre-conditions” when it comes to diplomacy. Last night Palin repeated McCain’s assertion that Obama would sit down with the ‘crazy’ dictators of the world with no pre-conditions. This Palin described as “dangerous.” In my mind, a ‘preparation’ is something like having your lower-level diplomats begin talks with the other country or even something like deciding where to have the talks. ‘Pre-conditions’ are saying that we won’t even talk with you until you stop X. Obama’s point is that, if you want the other country to stop X, you don’t set that as the pre-condition because then you’re eliminating the need for the talks before they even begun. Obama wants to deal with the other countries diplomatically and with preparations; this is the wisest and best course of action going forward into the future. The fact that Palin (and really, I mean her handlers) thinks this is “dangerous” just shows that she (and by extension, McCain) still has a 20th century mentality. (Not to mention, it seems foolish to make such a judgment when you don’t even know what you’re talking about. She mentioned Kim Jong Il and Ahmadinejad as the leaders we’ll have to deal with. At this point, Kim Jong Il hasn’t been seen in months and may be ill; Ahmadinejad is only the president of Iran and does NOT have control of his country’s security. I find it disheartening that Palin didn’t know or mention either of these things.)

Another thing that bothered me about Palin last night is she said that the constitution guaranteed the legislative power of the VP. In other words, she would want to step in and take the same role as Cheney. Hmmm. I was so glad to hear Biden contradict her, saying that the constitution does not give the VP legislative powers, and furthermore that Cheney is the scariest VP in our history. (Ok, I can't remember exactly what Biden called Cheney, but it was something like that.)

Not matter what you think of him, you have to admit that Biden's got balls!

Thursday, October 2, 2008

Correction

Yesterday I said that McCain was asked about seeking advice from Palin on energy. Thanks to a caller on NPR (who made the same point that I did), the question was not about energy but foreign policy. Also, the caller said that McCain met Palin twice before choosing her, not once.

My points still stand: do we really believe that McCain sought advice "many times" from an obscure governor in Alaska on foreign policy? And what exactly did he mean by "in the past" since she's only been his running mate for less than two months? I can understand if an infant thought two months was "in the past," but not a man in his 70's. Doesn't he have a longer view than that?


Tonight is the debate between Palin and Biden. I will watch, then I will go out drinking. I'm sure I will need a few cocktails to ease the pain. If that doesn't work, I'll click over to nbc.com again and watch the Tina Fey skits: the one with Clinton, and the one where she's being interviewed by Katie Couric. Top notch work by Fey in both.

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

Observations

I watched the Presidential debate last week. I was asked who I thought won, and I answered honestly that I thought it was very close, although possibly Obama edged it. Why? I think the face-to-face debate is great, not only for getting the candidates' views, but also for observing which candidate seems more 'presidential.' In that respect, it was a slam dunk for Obama.

Both gave good, reasonable answers but nothing we haven't heard from them on the campaign trail. However, I couldn't stand watching McCain smirk every time Obama was giving his answers. It was like he had a private joke that no one else was in on. It was rude and definitely NOT presidential. Also, the moderator asked both candidates to talk to each other, but only Obama attempted to do this. McCain never addressed Obama directly, nor did he even look at him. Further, Obama said several times during his rebuttal, "You're right about that, but..." or something to that effect. In other words, he was answering honestly that McCain's views were in some way valid but just weren't correct with what Obama thought. As we all know from everyday social discourse, this is the best way to talk with someone. However, McCain never said anything like that; instead, he stated several times about Obama, "He just doesn't understand," as if Obama's views were completely invalid and ignorant.

When it comes to the person with the better character, I'd say this debate clearly showed that Obama is head and shoulders (not a short joke) above McCain.


McCain was interviewed on NPR this morning. When he was asked if he'd ever asked Palin for advice about energy, McCain answered, "Many times in the past." He then got off topic by talking about how he wouldn't ask Obama or Biden for advice because they had always been wrong in the past.

Breaking that down, we can only assume that that was a big fat lie. First of all, he never gave any specifics. He said "many times" but, when pressed, couldn't give any specifics. Second, McCain only met Palin once - and then only briefly - before she was chosen as his running mate in August. Did he refer to the last month and a half as "the past"? Exactly when and about what did he ask for her advice? Do we really believe that McCain - with his years of experience as a senator - would really ask this relatively-new politician for advice about energy? With all his connections in Washington DC, Arizona and the government in general, do we really believe he called Palin for advice? Yet he insisted. Again, what a liar!


An observation: when people are giving information, they begin the sentence with "so." When they are trying to convince you of something, they begin with "look." I've heard "So..." a lot lately, particularly from scientists or experts trying to explain some complex issue. I wonder if that's been part of the science lexicon for awhile or if it's a relatively-new phenomenon. (For a good drinking game, listen to "Talk of the Nation/Science Friday" and drink every time someone starts a sentence with "So". You'll have a great start to the weekend!)

As far as starting a sentence with "Look..." I think that started most recently by Donald Rumsfeld and the Bush administration (with an added index finger tapping the podium for emphasis) when they had to answer questions about the war. The implication seems to be that, by saying "look," you are obviously right in what you are about to say.

For example, think of the difference between "So, we thought we had evidence of WMD's" vs "Look, we thought we had evidence of WMD's." The former is obviously softer and seems like more explanation is forthcoming or possibly an admission of guilt. The latter is harder and seems like it is shutting down the conversation, or at least leading to how it's not their fault. No wonder the government likes to use "Look..." Be careful when you hear that word start a sentence. (For this drinking game, listen to a press conference and drink when they start a sentence with "look". Just make sure you don't have to get up early the next day!)

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Wouldn't You Know...

It wasn't always an easy trip, but I'm home at last!

Yesterday I got up and looked at the Plymouth-Brockton website for the bus schedule. My two choices were 11:40 or 12:40; the former would get me to Logan two and a half hours before my 4:00 flight, the latter only one and a half. The last time I did that flight (in July), I took the 11:40 flight, got to the airport with tons of time, and sat at the gate bored out of my mind. Still, I was torn about what bus I should take, because I did not relish the idea of getting lectured about how you're supposed to arrive at the airport two hours before your flight.

My Dad asked what time my bus was, and my Mom answered, "Noon." I don't know why, but I didn't contradict her, probably because I still wasn't sure what bus I was going to take. Dad left the house, then came back at 11:15 while Mom was in the shower. He asked again about the bus, and I told him about my two choices. He wanted me to get the earlier bus, but for that we'd have to leave right then, and Mom wouldn't be ready to go. I told him I'd take the 12:40 bus, so we could leave at 12:15.

We sat around the kitchen table watching the clock (no deep, meaningful conversation - so glad I chose to hang around for that!) then left a few minutes early. Arriving at the bus stop, I went to buy my ticket while my folks stood guard at my suitcases. (As a side note, I find it interesting that in other countries, people line up (or 'queue up' in the Commonwealth countries) at the bus stop, while we Americans just mill around. When the bus arrives, there's no order or fairness as to who gets on in what order. Strange.) The bus arrived late, and when the driver opened up the cargo doors, I realized just how full this bus was. The entire hold looked full of suitcases and, sure enough, almost every seat was full. This had never happened to me before on this bus, and I started to get anxious. What if not everyone were able to get on? If it were me, and I had arrived first at the bus stop but was unable to get on, I'd be pissed!

We left that stop with one seat empty, but at the next stop more people wanted to get on. I didn't know this bus line allowed it, but three people ended up standing in the aisle. We stopped once more, letting off a couple of people and leaving two standing. The driver called out to see if anyone were getting off at the last stop before South Station, and since no one answered, we continued on Rtes 3 and then 93, making up for lost time.

Two things to keep in mind at this point: the bus was running late, and ever since Barnstable people were grumbling about not making their flights. All this grumbling got to me, so I was also feeling nervous as we continued towards Boston.

Unexpectedly, the bus went over a few hard, jarring bumps (construction? pot holes?), and we could suddenly smell some kind of chemical. Since there was construction happening on the highway, I wasn't sure if the odor was coming from outside or the bus itself. My questions were soon answered when the bus, which had been cruising fast in the left lane, gradually began to slow down. I could hear horns coming from behind us, but cars continued to speed past on our right, so the bus wasn't able to pull over. Finally, the driver leaned on his own horn while easing his way to the right. As the bus came to a dead stop in the right-hand lane (there was no break-down lane here), those of us in the back could see brown smoke streaming up past the windows.

We all stood up, gathered our things, and waited to get out. As more smoke billowed up, and as the people in front didn't seem to be moving, a few passengers shouted out, an edge of panic in their voices. I don't mean to imply anything, but I found it interesting that it was all women who yelled; I found it equally interesting that it was another woman who told them not to panic. Turned out that the bus had pulled over right up against a wall, so it was actually difficult to get out of the bus and squeeze past the open door so that we could mill around in the lee of the bus.

I didn't see the driver, and because we weren't getting any information, I called my Sister to pick me up. I know it was a lot to ask, especially because she was at least 25 minutes away and had three children to deal with, but I was getting desperate to make my flight. She agreed to come get me after she arranged rides for her kids, then quickly called me back saying she was on her way. What a champ!

Meanwhile, a firetruck showed up as well as MA state troopers and an ambulance. I found it funny that the guy from the bus who ended up talking to the cops and firemen - almost as the bus spokesman - was actually retarded. Maybe not completely, but he was NOT all there, if you know what I mean. After the ambulance left, word spread that the bus driver was taken away. I don't know how he got sick, but I was hoping it was just the fumes and not a heart attack. Meanwhile, cars kept passing, some very slow so they could stare at us; now I know how traffic jams form. Assholes.

At this point, I was trying to figure out how I would get my suitcase out from the bus for when my Sis showed up. I called her to get an update, and she said she was on her way but in the traffic (created by the breakdown, of course); she also suggested I call the airline to tell them I was on my way. I tried calling Alaska Air at Logan, but screaming over the sound of traffic was not conducive to making a call. It didn't seem like I could reach the desk anyway.

Finally, after the firetruck put out the fire and left, and after one state trooper moved his car and opened up another lane of traffic, two buses showed up. I helped get everyone's baggage out of the bus and set my own aside. As all my fellow passengers got onto the other buses, I was still trying to call the airline as I planned on waiting for my Sister. A short state trooper (the worst combination!) came over and told me that the buses were leaving. I tried to tell him that I was waiting for my sister, but he barked that I could in no way stand on the highway, even though the broken-down bus was still going to be there. Figuring that I couldn't argue with a MA state trooper (the very definition of officious), I grabbed my suitcase and got on to the second bus.

My Sister took it well when I told her what happened - again, what a trooper! As our bus passed the first one on the highway (I chose the faster bus - yea!), I called the airline again, but this time I chose to get arrival/departure times. We made our stop at South Station just as I learned my mistake: the plane wasn't leaving at 4, it was scheduled to leave at 4:35. Not only did it look like I'd make my flight, but it also looked like I'd be half an hour early.

Sure enough, there was no one lining up at the ticket counter, so I handed the attendant my suitcase and gave him my name. Instead of lecturing me about how late I was, he asked if I knew someone with the same last name, to which I replied, "You asked me that already." Yes, this counter attendant was the same one who helped me in July when I flew out of Logan, and we'd had a conversation determining that I didn't know the person he was referring to. I told him I'd see him in a few months as I rushed off to my gate.

Ultimately, what I thought about the whole experience was how strange it is to go through something like that, then sit down with fellow passengers who had no idea what I just went through. I wanted to shout, "It was harder for me to get here than all of you. You've all been here bored while I was standing on the highway worrying that I wouldn't make it. But I did!" Or something like that. Not that anyone would care.

This morning I went to boston.com, but wouldn't you know, not a word. I guess 60 people standing on the highway next to a smoking bus and causing a huge traffic jam just isn't news anymore.

Sunday, September 28, 2008

Driving In The Rain

My older Sister came for a visit with her Daughter and their small dog. They arrived Friday afternoon and left today around 1:00 pm. Thing is, they were supposed to be here last weekend, which is the time my Mom was expected to be getting out of the hospital. For their sakes, I'm glad they didn't come last weekend because they would've been stuck just visiting Mom in the hospital. For MY sake, however, I almost wish they had come last weekend.

When last I spoke to Sis, she said she would be coming the weekend of the 20th. I then emailed friends here in MA to say that I could play D&D (yes, I still play D&D, but that's a topic for another day) on the 27th. It was only after I arrived here on the Cape that my Sister informed me she would be visiting the weekend of the 26th. When I told her my plans of driving off Cape, she gave me the guilt trip. How could I leave her and visit my friends when she'd only be here for the weekend? She only sees me twice a year, how could I spend some of that precious time away? Don't I miss her? Don't I want to see my Niece? Ugh! My dirty little secret is that, if anyone wants me to do anything, all they need do is have my Sister ask me. She can guilt me into doing anything.

Since I really wanted to see my friends, since I really wanted to play D&D, and since I was going to be exchanging an old lap top for a new one, I worked out a compromise: I would leave the Cape fairly late - around 3 - and then drive back after D&D so that I'd be here in the morning before they left. I thought that would be a good compromise because our group had been planning to finish early anyway, so I could probably make it back here by 1 am.

The problem? This is the weekend that a tropical storm was moving through, so during my two-and-a-half-hour drive I had to deal with downpours, flooded highways, at least one major accident, and hydroplaning. It wasn't much fun, but I did get there without incident.

The evening was wonderful: good friends, great food, and a fun D&D session. However, we ended up finishing after the time we thought we were going to, and then Greg had to finish prepping the laptop. Kate's rule held true: whatever time Greg gives, just multiply it by 3. Sure enough, Greg's "twenty minutes" turned into an hour. I in no way can complain - a free laptop fully prepped is nothing to sneeze at - but I kept thinking about my drive home. I almost wanted to take Kate up on her offer and sleep over, but my Sister's words kept ringing in my ears. I soldiered on.

Luckily, most of the heavy rain had already passed, and because of the late hour, there weren't a lot of cars on the road. Still, wouldn't you know that the one time I decided to pass a slow moving car, it hit a huge puddle and splashed water over my windshield - completely obscuring my vision. Because it wasn't raining hard at that point, I didn't even have my wipers on. I was tired, moving fast on a two-lane road along side another car, and I couldn't see a thing. If nothing else, that sure got my adrenaline pumping!

The rest of the drive proceeded without incident except for my hydroplaning and battling fatigue. I got in around 3 am, but because of all the caffeine I drank to stay awake, I was unable to fall asleep until 4. At 8:30 I woke up - probably to use the bathroom - but I could hear my Sister and Niece already up, so I got out of bed and went downstairs.

And here's what really pissed me off. All that talk about wanting me here and spending time with me seemed to be just that - talk. The reality is, I'm tired and GRUMPY in the morning and not much fun to be around until after I've had (lots of) coffee. Also, Sis was on a schedule to leave, so most of her morning was spent packing up and getting ready (including an inordinate amount of time in the bathroom). Not really the QUALITY time she had in mind, I'm sure. So basically, I put myself at risk driving back at 2am in the rain just so I could be a half-awake, grouchy lump in her presence. Not really worth it, I'd say.

The highlight of the morning came as a lesson in why you should write things down as soon as you hear them. While sitting at the breakfast table, my Niece informed us that Sis will sometimes sing in the shower. She said, "She sings to the sound of ________ in the shower." The blank was a word I can no longer remember, but it had to do with the rhythm (beating? tapping?) of the water hitting the floor. It was so poetic! I thought at the time that I wanted to remember it, but I was probably just on my first cup of coffee, so obviously that wasn't gonna happen.

If nothing else, at least I was around for that.

Thursday, September 25, 2008

Meta-Blogging

Maybe I should've gotten this out of the way on the first posting, but I can't help thinking about someone else reading this blog - which of course leads to the question of why write a blog in the first place.

If my mom were to ask what a 'blog' is, I'd describe it as an online diary or journal (the former being what a girl writes and thus something my mom might understand, the latter being what a boy writes and thus showing her that I do in fact know what a boy would call it) that anyone can read. Assuming they find it. Or care what a complete stranger has to say. However, this description is disingenuous - for me anyway - because I'm writing this with the understanding that it isn't a private journal; thus, absolutely private/secret things are not going here. But, isn't that why one writes a journal in the first place? Besides, the likelihood of anyone reading this beyond one or two entries (if that) is so remote that I really shouldn't worry about what I post, right? Then why not put down secrets? Or, why write at all?

I guess the answer has to be that I enjoy collecting my thoughts and putting them in some slightly-organized form. And even though I'm currently between jobs (cough cough), this is a good way for me to keep up my writing skills should the need arise to actually use them. I won't put down secrets because I may one day invite friends/family to read this, and I wouldn't want to over share. (Although it does make me think about starting a private, X-rated blog. Hmm...) Finally, should strangers actually find and read these posts, it would be good to share opinions and - to quote "Seinfeld" - yadda yadda yadda.

The only other problem I've encountered so far with writing a blog is that I forget half the things that I think about or happen to me during the day. I hear something on NPR, get outraged, then when I finally sit down to compose this, I can't remember exactly what outraged me. I suppose I should just write things down as soon as they happen, even if that means multiple posts on the same day. Who would care, right? Is there some blogger protocol which states you can't do that?

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Home At Last

Yesterday we learned that Mom woke up Sunday night with chest pains and a spike in her blood pressure. The docs wanted to do more tests, so it looked like she'd be spending at least one more night in the hospital. Dad didn't talk about it, but I could tell he was worried. We went for a visit after lunch and stayed for a few hours. During that time, they took her for a CAT scan, but we hadn't received the results before we left. They also tested her blood pressure, and thankfully it was back down to normal.

I'm now at that age when parents are starting to look old, but especially my parents, since they are typically ten years older than my peers'. That being said, my cousins lost their dad last year (my favorite uncle - that loss is still hard to take, especially during baseball season), and one of my best friends lost his dad the year before. I guess I can't complain that my folks are just looking old. Still, it always seems to be a shock when I see them for the first time after being away. Sunday that was seeing my Dad step out of his car when he came to pick me up at the bus stop; yesterday that was seeing my Mom lying in her hospital bed. It hasn't helped that they've both lost weight recently. Because the weight loss was due to illness, they don't look healthier but more shriveled, if that's the right word. Actually, they are now about the age of my grandparents when I first became sentient. By the time I came of a thinking age, my grandparents were already in their 70's, and I thought they were old. Apparently, it's now my folks' turn.

Today I went back to the hospital to pick up Mom. Despite all that worrying, the tests came back fine (although they're still not sure what the chest pains are from - makes you wonder why they let her go), so they discharged her. In the meantime, Dad drove himself up to my sister's so that the two of them could attend my aunt's wake. Anna Melloni was not my real aunt, but she was married to my Dad's childhood friend, so I've known them all my life. Anna was a wonderful person - smart, energetic and fun-loving - and she will be missed. I don't envy my sister going to the wake!


Because of everything going on, I haven't really been following the campaign. Actually, it is my natural inclination to avoid politics; otherwise, the last eight years would've killed me. Anyway, I've already formed my opinion and know I'm going to vote for Obiden, so why keep listening to the same old crap? I don't think there's anything that McPalin could say at this point to make me change my mind. It's not just the fact that I like the Obiden ticket, it's also that I just can't stand the idea of another four years under republican rule - even if the 'pub is a supposed maverick. How can we take the chance? As Prez Clinton reminded us during the Democratic National Convention, the 'pubs had four years with complete control of the presidency and congress, and look what happened. Can you say, "Illegal War"! Besides which, McCain has already promised if given the chance, he will select more supreme court justices in the mold of Scalia and Thomas.

If that were to happen, I'd seriously look at moving to Canada.

Monday, September 22, 2008

Weekends Ain't What They Used To Be

Saturday we attended a graduation party for a friend who finished after two decades of course work. I think that sets a record! To be fair, most of those 20 years was spent not taking classes, so I think he earned the degree in about the same time as you'd expect. Anyway, the food they provided was eclectic (pickled herring, cheeses, dips, veggies) and delicious, but later that evening my stomach was not feeling well enough to try and make it to another friend's 50th birthday party. I ended up going to bed early so that Sunday...


...I could wake up at 4:20 am and get ready for my 7:00 flight to Boston. I love Alaska Air's direct flight, but I wish they could do something about that schedule! On the flipside, I love the fact that the return flight out of Boston is at 4:00 pm and arrives in Portland at 7. That usually leaves the evening free for at least one drink, not to mention some catch-up time with Partner.

In any case, the flight was quite pleasant, especially because I got to the airport early enough to change my seat to an exit row. Gotta love the leg room! Also, I sat next to a young couple from Portland who were visiting family in Belmont before flying off to Paris (for a 12-hour lay-over) and then South Africa for two and a half weeks. Apparently they won a safari trip at an auction and decided to take that opportunity to see parts of the Continent. How did I find out so much and even more?

Normally I never talk to other passengers on a flight. Maybe it's the Bostonian in me, or the fact that I can be introverted and quite shy - or maybe it's the fact that I fear being friendly to some one who subsequently won't shut up and wants to invite me to a Bible study - but in any case, I usually try to avoid saying anything to my seatmates beyond "excuse me" or "thanks." For whatever reason, this time was different, and the woman (I never did get her name) was pleasant, funny and, most importantly, knew when to end the conversation.

At one point, a couple things occurred to me: a) people from Portland seem to be generally nicer than East Coasters; and b) flights are so much better when you think of your seatmates as part of your 'team' and not your enemies. Later I realized the same thing holds true for driving. If all of us on the road thought of each other as teammates and not enemies (after all, we all want us to get where we're going safely), there wouldn't be so much aggression and bad feelings. This of course leads to my long-standing belief that there should be more Public Service Announcements on tv about safe driving - but that's fodder for another blog.

Sunday evening I arrived in Boston, but because the luggage took a long time to come out (typical at Logan), I missed the first bus to the Cape and had to kill almost an hour at the terminal. When I finally got to Hyannis, I learned that Mom was going to be in the hospital for another night. Even though the surgery went well, recovery was taking longer than expected, and they still wanted to make sure that everything was ok. I hate to think it, but I guess I hadn't been worrying for nothing...

Friday, September 19, 2008

"What Operation?" or What Happens When You Forget To Call

Mom went into the hospital this morning for an operation that could've been relatively simple or - if there were complications - quite serious. The problem was that the doctor couldn't predict it; he'd know only after he started the procedure. The good son that I am, I forgot to call her yesterday to wish her good luck. I guess I had it in mind that, since today was the operation, today was the day to call. Duh.

When I called Dad this morning, he said that the operation started later than expected and Mom was still in the O.R. He'd call later - in an hour if everything went well - and tell me how she was. Two and half hours after that, I was out on my walk and still hadn't heard anything.

Which is, of course, when the worrying began. As I walked, I started having fantasies about the operation. Turned out that the procedure was more serious, and they had to cut her open. It was only then that they realized she was a bleeder. Suddenly, the operation got deadly serious and was beyond the expertise of the Cape Cod doctors. Soon I'd get the call that she was dead. Even knowing this was all made up, tears filled my eyes.

I shook that off and dismissed it as needless worry. Of course she was alright. In fact, there were no complications, she was fine, and Dad just forgot to call. That had to be it. Wouldn't you know it, my mobile phone rang.

It was my younger sister. Judging by her tone of voice (which I was consciously listening to), I could tell that everything was fine. Turned out my latter prediction was true. My sister told me she had been worrying (which made me think: is worrying a Nature-vs-Nurture thing? Did we learn this from our folks, or were we born this way?) and decided to be proactive and call Dad. He was, in fact, just hanging out in the hospital, drinking coffee with my Aunt, and neglecting to call his children. His defense, "I guess I'm just not good at these things." Thanks.

My Dad is a wonderful person, definitely self-less, but almost certainly self-centered. As we like to joke, "It's all about me."

But that's probably a blog for another day...

Thursday, September 18, 2008

Odds and Ends

I am so sick of women (and a few men, for that matter) saying that they aren't going to vote for Obiden - or vote at all - because of the way Hillary was treated during the primary. Sure it's disappointing that your candidate didn't win, but does that mean you should abdicate your responsibility to vote? I don't think so. This is especially true if you were going to vote for Hillary because of her values (if you were only voting for Hillary because she was a woman, then McCain picked the right running mate after all). Most of what Hillary stood for, Obama stands for. Conversely, most of what Bush stood for, McCain stands for, so not voting for Obiden is just like saying you'll be happy with four more years of the republican/Bush agenda. If that were true, why be for Hillary in the first place? I think "Hillary" said it best on the Saturday Night Live skit two weeks ago, "I didn't want a woman to be President, I wanted to be President, and I just happen to be a woman." BTW, if you haven't seen that skit yet, by all means click over to www.nbc.com and watch the SNL opener with Palin/Clinton vs. sexism. It is spot-on hilarious.


Today we had a couple of guys from the Oregon Energy Trust come into our home to run tests and see how we can make our house more energy efficient. Judging by the work they did, it's already worth the $500 fee to have them in here. However, we won't actually pay them until they return with a full report on their findings and recommendations. Great idea, and I'm glad we're doing it. But, boy is it weird to have people in your home for 4-5 hours. I couldn't watch tv or listen to NPR because of the work, and I didn't want to do anything that might be seen as a frivolous waste of time (think: solitaire on the computer). It was really just awkward, but maybe that's just me.


Palin: "I said, 'Thanks, but no thanks' for the bridge to nowhere." Um, actually, your record is public, Sarah, so we know that you didn't say that. You supported it up until the government pulled the plug.

The next day: "I said, 'Thanks, but no thanks' for the bridge to nowhere." Sarah, you didn't say that, so maybe it would behoove you to change your story.

The next day: "I said, 'Thanks, but no thanks' for the bridge to nowhere." Sarah, your saying it doesn't alter the truth. You didn't support it, and everyone knows it. Stop lying!

Great choice, McCain. The first words out of her mouth are a lie. You call yourselves mavericks? Sounds like every other politician to me.

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

Drill, Baby, Drill

I swear not every post will be political, but...

There's been a lot of talk about our nation's dependence on oil, and it seems to me there are two issues: getting our country less dependent on foreign oil sources, and weaning ourselves off from our oil addiction entirely.

The former issue is a band-aid at best and extremely harmful at worst. The underlying assumption of this is that we WILL continue to use oil as our main source of energy, despite the fact that it is a fossil fuel and contributing to "global weirding." (This is a term used by some scientists to denote the fact that global warming is a misnomer; our planet's weather won't just get warmer, it'll actually get stranger: hotter hots, colder colds, stronger storms, longer droughts, etc.) Oil not only pollutes the planet, but it's also a finite (and expensive) source of energy. This is not a long-term solution to our problem.

The latter issue - weaning ourselves off of oil - is the solution espoused by both candidates as well as the Bush administration. Makes sense: the investment in renewable sources of energy will create jobs and help the economy, and the energy sources will be non-polluting and infinite. (If only Reagan hadn't derailed this effort in the 80's. Imagine what our country would be like now if we had continued with this as Jimmy Carter had wanted.)

The problem: the republicans (or people voting for them) are talking about doing both. Their solution: while we're developing these alternate sources or energy, let's start more drilling off our coasts and (as Palin wants) in Alaska. Logically this makes no sense and is hypocritical at best - underhanded and evil at worst - and here's why.

'Drilling' is not as simple as pounding a giant bit into the ground and collecting a fountain of Texas Tea. It takes years of research, it's environmentally unsound (and thus subject to potential lawsuits) and it's costly. The most optimistic guess on when we could see the benefits of drilling is five years, with most analysts saying it would be at least 10. Which is not to say that we would then be completely independent from other countries' oil supplies, we would just have a little more.

Again, according to the 'pubs, this would be happening at the same time as the research and development of alternate fuels. In that case, what's the point? Why spend years and millions of dollars on drilling when, at the end of 5-10 years, we would've developed something else and wouldn't need the oil? If we're honestly looking into solar, wind, tides, fusion, etc, why bother with the huge investment of drilling?

The cynic in me says that the 'pubs aren't being honest. They say that they're for alternate fuel sources when they really just want to help the big oil companies. They have no real interest in developing alternate fuel sources, as evidenced by the alternative energy tax credit bill which has stalled in Congress. What they want is the same thing that the oil execs want: huge sums of money at our expense.

The worst part: we were the suckers chanting along with Guilliani, "Drill, baby, drill."

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

Maiden Voyage

Indignation and anger have led me to some violent thoughts and wild flights of fancy. The action I take? Start a blog! Makes sense to me. It is one of the easiest things to do, after all.

Until this year, I was always registered as an independent, but the truth is, I'm really a left-winger with more than a dash of libertarianism. Needless to say, the last eight years have driven me crazy. It seemed hardly a week went by when we didn't learn of some new outrage coming from the Bush administration. How many administrations have there been where starting an illegal war was just the tip of the iceberg!

Now we're faced with McCain/Palin. Argh! Eight years ago I seriously thought about voting for McCain (before he had a private meeting with Bush during the primaries and emerged declaring that he was conceding to Bush's campaign - makes me wonder what was said during the meeting). I ended up voting for Nader. I was living in Massachusetts at the time (my home state) and realized that Gore was still going to get MA's electoral votes, so why not throw some support behind a 'viable' third party? In my opinion, this country absolutely needs more points of view represented.

Back to McCain/Palin. I listen to NPR almost every day, and I often hear interviews with 'average' citizens. What kills me is that people who say they're going to vote for McPalin more often than not are projecting their own beliefs onto the candidates or use false logic to justify their choice. For example: just a few minutes ago a Florida man said that, even though McCain was a war hero and Obama worked for the poor community in Chicago, neither one understood the plights of the 'common man.' And that's why he's voting for McPalin?! This makes no sense, especially when one considers that both Barack and Michelle Obama have working-class roots. Another example: a woman just said that she likes McCain's family values, even though he's the only one of the candidates to be divorced. Where's the logic in that?

It just goes on and on. Now there's a "Fresh Air" episode about Cheney (Darth Vader) and how he made himself into the strongest vice president in history. The author was also interviewed last night on "The Daily Show." I'll buy and read the book when I want to give myself an aneurysm.

Bumper sticker from my car: "Cthulhu for President - Why vote for the lesser of two evils?"